Spirit of Thankfulness
Note to self: When someones Mother dies, don't hang around in their office for 10 minutes talking because ten others have done that before you.
I don't know if I'm all "numby" inside or if I am simply riding on the spirit of thankfulness. One way or the other, my heart does not hurt. I'm really trying not to examine that too close and just be grateful that God has chosen to spread his loving balm of peace on my spirit.
Today I am grateful:
- That my sobriety is not contingent on a painless life or sorrow-free days.
- That a loving God scooped me up from the mire of addiction and cleaned me up.
- That when the hospice nurses counted the deloted, methadone, morphine and lorazipam it all came out exactly on the money.
- That returning to work yesterday was a return to work I love.
- That I got to spend five days with my brother and his wife, who is more like a sister than an in law.
- That even though there were a few uncomfortable people in the room, I provided my Mother with the Baptist preaching, Baptist singing funeral that she wanted.
- That in the end, I was able to see the "woman" under all that Mama.
Pammie
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I will keep that "note to self" in mind as well, Pam. Glad you gave your Mama what SHE wanted. Have a great rest of the week!
A magical experience.
it's great to love your work, I've recently discovered... and it soooo wonderful that we can have "condition free" sobriety. That makes living through life's difficulties so much easier... God Bless ya Pammie :-)
"The woman under all that mama"...that made me cry Pammie. What a beautiful woman indeed. All my love to you.
You have a faith that moves mountains. I love your insights.
I find that those in recovery can get right to the heart of the matter.
No bullshitting, no double speak.
That's how it is at Pammie's place!
You are an amazing woman. Thank you for allowing us to walk with you and to see God's powerful healing and love.
Thanks Pam for sharing about this. I think that your mama taught you a lot. It shines through it what you write. I'm glad that you two had each other through life all the way from beginning to end.
Thinking of ya'll
<3<3<3 Quick hugs and OUT! <3<3<3
Much love to you!
For some reason this post makes me all proud of you.
Lovin' you Pammie.
I envy you being able to see the woman your mother was. My mother was gone for years before I was able to sort it out.
You sound really good. jeNN
Your Mama had a lot to be proud of in you.
Blessings and aloha...
You said, "Today I am grateful:
That my sobriety is not contingent on a painless life or sorrow-free days.
That a loving God scooped me up from the mire of addiction and cleaned me up."
And today I'm grateful for you that you had such an ending with your Mama, and you have peace in your heart. I believe that's how a loving Higher Power intended things to be for you, his beloved child.
I just love you!
I am with JeNN; it took me years to see the woman under the mama, but am grateful for it and grateful for your post and your gratitude and love...Pam...I love you and so glad you could provide your mom with her send off...
love
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Doing "MAMA"s way is a tribute to your love for her.
{{xo}}
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